It just takes YOU

I'll even admit it myself that there are times when I just don't want to hear it. I know better of the right things I should do, but I end up not doing it. In the bible it also states that it is a sin to know what you ought to do and don't do it. And lately I been feeling like God had plans for me to do that he put in my heart but I chose what I wanted for myself instead.

As much as I was growing closer to God, I still fell in my walk with Him. Everyone falls sometimes and makes mistakes. &Let me tell you that it's never easy for me to get back on track with him, especially when I felt alone in this.

I sat here a few minutes ago crying out to God about why I was hurting and realized it was because I stopped seeking him. I slipped back into trying to fill my own happiness the way I thought was best for me. Truth is, I can only feel peace and joy through his love and grace. He is the source of my happiness. When I spend time with God, I'm not hurting on the inside anymore.

Here's something to think about...

Do you feel in your heart or life that something is missing? Maybe you're searching for love, or security? Are you tired of being disappointed?

Maybe you can ask God again to help heal what's hurting us. Or maybe you can ask to fill in that emptiness you've been looking for and fill it with his love. And if you have never prayed before, just talk with God in your own words! Repeat after me if you'd like somewhere to start...

God, I am ready to follow you and I give my heart and life to you. Please forgive me of the mistakes I have made and allow me to start with a clean slate. You paid for our sins through the blood of Jesus Christ and I accept him as my savior. I want to continue to learn more about you as I trust you more all the days of my life. Help me to turn away from the sins I am convicted of and future sins so that I can keep my focus on you. Thank you for always loving us. Help us to also love others through your love. In Jesus' name, Amen.

What if

So i read this and I thought it was super amazing that I reposted it to share it with you all. A friend of mine posted it on facebook, so I don't call ownership of this. But what I'd like is that you read and think about each sentence.


Would it make a difference if I told you that I loved you?

Would it make a difference if I touched you on your shoulder and told you that you are mine?

Would you believe me if I whispered in your ear and told you that you're a masterpiece, that you are priceless to me...

Because i have told you many times...

Would you listen if I told you that there was none like you and that you were made unique on purpose?

What if i told you that you were created for more than you were living for...For more than you even know is possible...

Would it make a difference to you if you knew your Daddy loved you and that he would never, and has never left your side...

How would you feel if you knew i had power over today and tomorrow?

Over life and death...That those scars that you hide, that are too deep to heal will become non existent with my touch...with just a word...

What would you think or how would you feel if, even though you do not know this yet, that I will keep telling you--that i will send messangers your way, that I will never give up until you hear, see, feel and know my love for you...

What if i told you that my Love isnt the love you know, that its a love you only hoped exists, but that its not a fantasy... its me.

What if i told you that my love makes me cheer with you when you succeed. That I cry when you cry. That i will never give up on you knowing...I will call your name, I will walk beside you and heal your hurts.

You are my child, with whom I love and with whom I think is stunning and wonderful.
I will keep telling you until you can hear my voice, see my footprints beside you and feel my hand upon your shoulder each day.

What if i told you that your beautiful the way you are...and that I want to see you grow, to be happy and be whole...

What if I prove myself to you over time, hour after hour, minute by minute, that I would give up all for you, bleed for you and even die so that you could live, What would be possible?

If you knew that Ive done all of this for you, what could be different?

What could be possible if you knew when I said "I love you" that I was talking to YOU??

Say What?

Okay so I know it's been a while again since I've written but it's because I just been collecting my thoughts and growing more each day with my experiences. All through out the day and last night I've just been talking with God about how I want to follow him and help other people.

It's amazing because last night I asked that I be able to rest more and spend some time with God and what's cool was that today I ended up not having school because the power went out in my building. Which allowed me to go home early to read pray and worship! In the time that I had, I also used it to talk with others that were in my heart to talk and pray for. I think it's awesome how God uses each of us to connect with each other and encourage one another. I mean, isn't that what we should do? Love one another? hehe

Plus I have a feeling that God's gonna do something even greater soon! I don't know yet what it is but I'm going to wait and see.

Happy Happy Joy Joy!

I am growing more in love with God each day! I can't stop these feelings inside that just wants to burst out and share with the whole world! ITS INEXPRESSIBLE!

So to catch you up on what I have been up to since the last time I blogged was that I started spending more time alone with God. I also started back up on finishing The Shack. It is amazing haha! It made me think more about my relationship with God and just reminded myself in praying from the heart. By the means of that is to always evaluate my heart and have God correct me sometimes when I have a realization that something is not right. An example would be the pride that I build up in my life or being impatient.

I also have been studying 1 Peter! I find that the more times I read it, I meditate and chew on what it's teaching me. Then the many times I read it, God uses it to show me somethings I didn't see before when I read it the first few times. Or sometimes I'd read a verse and take a long pause to ask God what he means by that then I eventually comprehend it. An example would be this one verse that I read...

"Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation, now that you have tasted that the Lord is good."
- 1 Peter 2:2-3

After reading this and thinking about it, I learned that we are thirsty and always wanting more to satisfy our need. Through those needs, we should seek God to fill that emptiness we normally tend to feel when we are filling our cravings with cheaper substitutes. And we could never have enough of God! There is so much to him that we can never fully understand.

And what's more cool is that me writing these blogs to you guys kinda helps me grow because just writing is my way of praising God. He reveals himself more and more to me as I spend time in sharing his love and even more that I'm writing all that I am thinking. It's like blogging to Jesus!

Oh Rain

Today was one of those days where I just want to hide under my blanket until the day is over. Oh how nothing would be accomplished if I did because life just doesn't play that way!

Someone once said that life is messy.Taking control of our situations is easier than trusting God to handle our problems. We then fall flat on our faces when were wrong and our plans is disrupted. I admit, I like to fix things myself and take pride in the end results. But when things start falling out of place, I feel like giving up under all that pressure and stress I'm holding! I am such a coward... I'd really like to trust God more! I want him to be my strength when I am weak, help me be patient, wait on him, and to love the ones that I can't stand.

These thoughts came to my head when I was sitting in class. Imagine half the class just whisper to each other or talk unknowingly loud saying negative comments about your work. Work that you spent hours trying to build up, day and/or night just trying to fix and get done because they didn't? Well that's what I had to go through today. I wanted to burst out in anger! I could of easily just lost control and slip out a few snaps here and there, but instead I decided to hold it in. As painful as it was, I'm glad it's almost over. Pressure and stress was piling on me to the point where I couldn't handle it anymore and just cried out to God. I prayed and thanked God that he helped me control my tongue but at the same time I thought that what if he feels the same way I felt when we offend God? How hurt he must feel when we say cruel and ugly things that he could hear without us realizing. ESPECIALLY WHEN IT'S ABOUT HIS WORK, HIS CREATION!

Wow... And yet.. He still loves us and forgives us when we ask for forgiveness. I am not worthy!

This also teaches me that maybe I should have a better heart and perspective on tomorrow that even though those people hurt me, I should be quick to forgive and love than to be quick to get angry and lash out my stress on them. If God does that for us, we should do the same to others. Especially how he reminds us in scripture to love one another, especially our enemies. Hmmm..

Chew On This

As the Scriptures say,
“People are like grass; their beauty is like a flower in the field.
The grass withers and the flower fades.



"How do you know what your life will be like tomorrow? Your life is like the morning fog—it’s here a little while, then it’s gone."





“Your eye is a lamp that provides light for your body. When your eye is good, your whole body is filled with light. But when it is bad, your body is filled with darkness.

Super Sweet Sundays

Today I was reminded about how Jesus took a day to rest, which he called the "Sabbath Day".I thought about that and looked into the Bible to see what that really meant. So here's what I got..

“Keep the Sabbath day holy. Don’t pursue your own interests on that day,but enjoy the Sabbath and speak of it with delight as the Lord’s holy day.Honor the Sabbath in everything you do on that day,and don’t follow your own desires or talk idly."
- Isaiah 58:13



“You have six days each week for your ordinary work, but the seventh day is a Sabbath day of complete rest, an official day for holy assembly. It is the Lord’s Sabbath day, and it must be observed wherever you live." - Leviticus 23:3


Since today is my of complete rest, I wanted to use it to spend some time alone with God. And share with you a few songs that were stuck in my head because I have just been worshiping God since I woke up this morning.


So Father God, I want to thank you for loving me with all that I am and saving me from my sins. I pray that I will continue to grow spiritually through the works of your holy spirit in me and that I will also be wiser with decisions I make through out the days of this week. Thank you for also putting people in my life that can help me through out life and can invest in me, like my leaders and the pastors of Newlife. Please bless them and their families God. Today I want to give you all my attention and in anything I do today, let it be for your glory and honor. I love you Jesus! In your name, Amen.