Update!

Hey blogspot! I know it's been a while since I last wrote a blog on here. I've started writing in my own journal on hand because it's easier to take around with me than having to blog online. Here's an update on where life has taken me and how I have responded these past couple of months to the changes God has made in my life.



Last summer, when I started this blog, I was on fire for God. I still am, but a point came in my life where I stopped growing. I let the worries of this world cloud up my mind where my focus got off track with where God wanted me to be and what I was doing. For instance, there was a break I had to take from a small group that I was leading in our youth ministry to grow further in my relationship with God. Rather than letting him grow my heart, I couldn't understand why God was changing things up in my life. But eventually I grew apart from my relationship with God and start filling my plate up with more responsibilities for me to put priority over my time with Him. I mean, who am I to tell Him, "Sorry God, I'm kinda busy with my life right now to spend time with you." God doesn't put me last on his list and love me any less, so why should I call myself a follower when I'm not centering my life on God?

After realizing I wanted a heart change and a clean slate, I decided to go back to church and do what I could to seek God. I've learned so much more than I did last summer when I was growing. An example could be the time I attended winter camp for youth. I was a bit nervous about going and felt out of place since I haven't been going to youth. Being there changed my heart even more and my thoughts on my life because I realized that I became a lukewarm Christian! My spark for God was fading but I didn't want it to end so I broke down and poured out my heart just asking God to do everything and anything to help make me more passionate in my relationship with him. From one of the sermons preached that night at camp I also learned that God is jealous for me. He is jealous for me because he loves me! Just like a man would be jealous for his wife if she were to ever think of another man who is not her husband. Thinking about that made me realize how do you fall in love with Jesus?

Trying to get back on track, I started talking with God and confessing all that I have done and just the things that were wrong in my heart and in my life. There a couple things that I've also started to help get more of God. I tried doing the Bible in 90 days reading plan. But felt frustrated when that wasn't working out for me. So now I'm reading this book called Crazy Love by Francis Chan. Who is also an incredible man, by the way. Crazy Love helped me remember a lot of what the Bible has taught me. One of the things it helped me remember is that our life here on earth is short.

A couple of times I came across the thought of how valuable our work here on earth is and how careful we should live our life. Ok, Ok, I admit...I'm the type of person who usually has my head in the clouds looking too far in my future of what I want to do in my life. I stress over the decisions I'm gonna be making for my life after high school. But that's all changed! I feel like by trusting God and putting my faith in him to handle, I will always succeed because I'm doing what he wants for me. So I've stopped worrying and focused more on finding what it is he is calling me to do, and how much more I can use the gifts God has given me to share with others who still don't know much about Jesus.

So... I guess to summarize altogether what I wanted to actually point out in this blog was that before I can start doing anything for God, I have to evaluate my heart and my relationship with God in order to grow. If I want to consider myself a true follower of Christ, I want to live my life the way he wants me to and help lead others to live a life that pleases our Father in Heaven.

Here are a few of my favorite verses that have helped me :)

"How do you know what your life will be like tomorrow? Your life is like the morning fog—it’s here a little while, then it’s gone. " - James 4:14

"Remember, it is sin to know what you ought to do and then not do it." - James 4:17

For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen. If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me. - Jeremiah 29:11-13


You must worship no other gods, for the Lord, whose very name is Jealous, is a God who is jealous about his relationship with you. - Exodus 34:14

If you cling to your life, you will lose it, and if you let your life go, you will save it.
- Luke 17:33